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Dax Harwood opens up about suffering from bulimia, body dysmorphia, and anxiety

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Dax Harwood appeared on "The Sessions" with Renee Paquette, where he opened up about tough topics such as suffering from bulimia, body dysmorphia, and anxiety.

Dax suffered from bulimia after high school:

"It was right after high school. I got into high school, I played high school football, and ate whatever, because I was a lineman and so I was trying to get big. I got to like 285 pounds, I'd always been a big kid, but I just got really, really, really big. Then I continued to eat that way after high school," he said.

"So without that extra physical activity, I just put on so much weight. I was embarrassed and I was just ashamed.”

“I had a buddy who moved in with me and my dad, maybe a year before that, because he had some family problems at home, and he came to live with us. He was overweight too, and one day I caught him doing it outside. I was like, 'What are you doing?' He said, 'I'm so sorry, man.' I said, 'Why are you doing it?' He said, 'Well, to help me lose weight.' I said, 'Oh, does it work?’ He said, ‘Well, I went from this weight to this weight.' I started doing it too, and working out and trying to get in the best shape for wrestling school."

"It was something that became routine. Addictions have never been a problem for me, so thankfully, I was able to just stop. But it got really bad to the point like I was every single day, at the end of the day, I would go outside, my dad could hear me, and I would just throw up," Harwood said.

On suffering from body dysmorphia:

"It was very scary when I realized, like, I can't go a day without doing this. The body dysmorphia, like how I viewed myself and how embarrassed I was of myself, and then I was embarrassed of what I was doing, you know, and then it would just become this cycle thing because I was thinking, 'Okay, well, if I can get to this weight, I'll stop and then not be embarrassed about anything.'"

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"I would lose the weight, but the body dysmorphia would never go away because one, you've got it stuck in your head. But when you're doing that, you're not getting any nutrients in your body. So as hard as I was working out, I was never building any muscle mass. So I got what's called skinny fat. My body would get, in my opinion, I would look worse than when I was actually heavy. So more than physically, it just wrecked me mentally.”

Dax also started suffering from panic attacks last year and didn’t know why. He went to a therapist and discovered the reason:

"Maria (my wife) had a miscarriage. She and I still lived in Orlando and we were going to the mall. She was like, 'I don't feel right, but let's just go to the mall.' She kept telling me how she didn't feel right," he shared.

"I said, 'Let's go to the hospital or go to the doctor or whatever it was, and let's get you checked out so you're not worried about it, and then we'll go on about our day.'"

"So we went there, she checked in, she sat down. They said 'Maria Harwood', and as soon as she stood up, she lost everything. She ran to the bathroom and I followed her there. She had our little, tiny baby in her hand. She was so broken."

"She was so worried and so upset, and so scared and so embarrassed by all these other emotions she was going through, so I had to be strong for her. I didn't want her to see me worried or upset because she had so much to worry about. So I hid all that stuff."

"When I would drive to the Performance Center or whatever, I would break down almost every day. It was one of these things where I broke down and I would question God, because I had, and I do now, have a relationship with God. But I said, 'God, why? Why did you do this to us? Just give me an answer.' I never was mad or angry, but I just wanted to know why this happened to us. I think what happened was so much stuff just piled up and I lost it."

Other topics covered in this episode include the story of how he met his wife, his real-life friendship with Cash Wheeler, and FTR’s exit from WWE.

If you use any portion of the quotes from this article please credit "The Sessions with Renée Paquette " with a h/t to WrestlingNews.co for the transcription.