On watching “Resurrection of Jake The Snake” film:
“They just left me to watch it. Afterwards they gave me some time (to digest what I’d seen). I was just blown away. It was very painful to watch.”
“You watch yourself on that roller coaster and then it finally sinks in that you’re OK now. You’re good now. It’s like that T-shirt that I made, ‘My history will not be my destiny.’ That means so much to me because I know what I was and I know how I am today. It angers me that I just threw away 25 years of my life. I threw away a career. I threw away family. I threw away everything … for a frigging drug. It’s just disgusting. But that’s what addiction is.”
On dealing with his demons:
“You have memories come back. Memories are funny. The first thing that comes back is, ‘Damn, what a good time I had smoking that s–t, you know.’ ‘Oh man, when I was so high, that felt so good.’ And then I remember the rest of the story. And the rest of the story was, ‘Yeah, what did you feel like that night when you ran out and you were going crazy and you were sweating and you were sick and the next day when you got up, you felt like crap and you hated life and you realized what else you’d destroyed.’ You’ve got to remember the whole story. Demons, they paint a pretty picture. They don’t like to show you the ugly stuff. That’s something you have to be careful of.”
You can read the entire interview at this link.